Ah, yes…
Have you ever found yourself on the listening end of a conversation when the only responses your brain can seem to articulate is something along the lines of , “uh (pause) huh”, “Well…” or, “(long) O (pause) kay”? You struggle to relate to what is being said, or you misread the context because, I don’t know, maybe the context is missing. Your tongue trips over the complexity of single syllables and conjunctions are the only pronounceable elements that stand between you and drooling.
It’s like that, only I’m the speaker.
Rather than subject anyone to the uncomfortableness of obligatory interaction, I’ve opted for claustrophobia, even thought it gets crowded in my head. At this point, I am seriously boring myself. There is nothing of importance here, just details, tedium and a laundry list of chores. Too inconsequential to mention, too heavy to forget, and too thankless to delegate successfully….and then there is the irony of remembering there was a time I looked foreword to being an adult. Breaking the boundaries of discipline, staying awake past midnight, doing things I wanted to do only I am mired in my own inertia.

April 13th, 2010 at 12:27 am
Hmmm. I think you might need a trip somewhere. Somewhere…..north.
April 13th, 2010 at 5:35 am
Meno is right. You gotta bust out, baby.
April 13th, 2010 at 10:05 am
it does sound like you’re isolated – and in a rut.
become a wallyworld greeter. you could do something boring outside the house too.
tutor an art class in the local community center, or teach an art course in the local community college, or in a local elementary school.
or go steal some moss from your local state park. get out in the sunshine.
or go north. or northwest. north by northwest. watch out for crop dusting airplanes and debonair ad execs in sunglasses, though.
April 20th, 2010 at 8:07 pm
meno, perhaps.
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de, I did write graffiti in the dust on the dining room table today.
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Bob, volunteering = good. teaching anything = my idea of hell. Stealing moss = excellent adventure, but I after I find something for poison ivy relief.