Pez Grande

We spoke of changes and self-confidence, the first year first week law student and I. Being a big fish in a tiny pond fosters a false confidence in your abilities. So the first year of law school, it seems it is full of small fish from little ponds tossed into a large lake without a depth finder. A class composed of the tops of other classes from smaller watering holes. And so the process begins anew. Finding one’s place amidst brilliance. It is humbling.

I am in awe when my life parallels someone else’s. Especially in matters regarding confidence. It’s surreal, and shocking when you realize your insecurities align with those of someone you always envisioned as intelligent, confident, and better adjusted than yourself. Beneath the facades, maybe we all possess self-conscious insecurities which level the playing field, or perhaps those who don’t a too arrogant to correct their failures, not recognizing inadequacy.

As the new age of competitiveness begins, performance expectations require reevaluation. You can’t always measure yourself against your peers. There will be times when you can only try to be better than you were before and forget about being the best. We can’t all find the cure for cancer, but we can strive to be the best self we are capable of being.

Funny how it’s easier to say than to believe.