Do you remember I wish scenarios, kids sometimes play?

I used to wish I could I could fly, or if I couldn’t, my bicycle could. I wanted to be as agile and acrobatic as the gymnast I saw on television and meals that didn’t include vegetables, but always had french fries. I also remember longing to be invisible, a fantasy I haven’t outgrown.

Old habits die hard. I am attending an event in a few days and it’s makes me so anxious that I’ve actually contemplated rolling in poison ivy so I wouldn’t be required to attend. Right now, I wish I owned the tiniest of bluetooth ear buds, unnoticeable to others, but capable of receiving data from a discretely located Mp3 player. It would relay music without interfering with conversation. Basically, it would provide a soundtrack to life, without others being aware. Like music that naturally plays in your head, but with all the lyrics and better quality bass.

I don’t want to completely tune people out (okay I do, but…). I just want to hear music that makes me more at ease, whether it be the lyrics, the fluidity, or the momentum

. I’m less uptight when I’m absorbed in the image of seventy year-old woman walking from the refreshment table to the chorus of Garbage’s I’m only happy when it rains….and it doesn’t scar me life like picturing some people naked.

Other music included on my pretend soundtrack:

The Eels: Mr E’s Beautiful Blues

Elizabeth and the Catapult: Taller Children

Aimee Mann: Humpty Dumpty

The Shins: Gone for Good

The Commodores: Brick House

Hem: Carry Me Home

Modest Mouse: Float On

Neko Case: Porchlight

Sia: Breathe Me

Train: Mississippi

Queen: Bohemian Rhapsody

Tori Amos: A Sorta Fairytale

B-52′s: Roam

Air: Alone in Kyoto

Sir Mix-A-Lot: Baby Got Back

Beck: Earthquake Weather

Beth Orton: Stolen Car

Carbon Leaf: Let Your Troubles Roll By

The Cardigans: You’re the Storm

Counting Crows: A Long December

James: Laid

Liz Phair: What Makes You Happy

Mike Doughty: I hear the Bells

My Morning Jacket: I’m Amazed

The Bloodhound Gang: Fire Water Burn

Patty Griffin: Change

Placebo: Running Up That Hill

Ryan Adams and The Cardinals: Everybody knows

Turin Brakes: Painkiller

Cake: Sheep Go To Heaven

Right Said Fred: I’m Too Sexy

William Shatner: Common People

Ben Folds: Jesusland

Josh Joplin Group: Camera One

Cowboy Junkies: A Common Disaster

Harold Faltemeyer: Axel F

Village People: YMCA